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It’s been a week since my last blood test, and six days since my doctor told me to expect to miscarry. I’m still pregnant and barely spotting.

I’ve begun dreaming about the baby, too, which is really hard. I dreamed that the nurse from my OB’s office called me and told me that the baby is a boy. . . but didn’t say I could relax and just be pregnant. Last night, I dreamed that I was going to give birth but the doctors couldn’t get it together to start the surgery.

I just… wish I knew.

–E