elfination

The craziest thing EVER is about to happen.

I’m about to get laid off.

This… is…….. amazing.

It’s not amazing like, “how could they not want to keep my talent?!?!? WTF?!? I thought they liked me!!! They’re stupid to think they can get by without me!!!”

It’s more amazing like, “dear sweet heavenly BabyJesus thank you for hearing my humble prayers.”

And while I’m not ever actually inclined to say that last part, it still applies.

Because………

*selfish*

I don’t want to go back. I want to go to school. And if I have to jump out of this airplane and swim, then you know, I might as well get shoved out. Maybe a little earlier than I was ready for, maybe I’ll have to be very careful with money for a few months before fall term starts…. but …. Better to not leave the job and have the job leave me. Better to see it as a sign from above and not argue with it.

Probably better to not laugh gleefully until tears run down my face….

At least, in front of other people….

But there’s no reason I can’t just go with it.

And, believe me…. I WANT to. I want this. I want to be OUT of the workforce. I want to apply myself to school, because I know I can. I know my brain can be filled with all sorts of information. I know that a degree or two and some certifications won’t be wasted on me. I know I have more to offer this world than holding a chair onto the floor in an office that can’t handle my sense of humor.

So I don’t want to go back. I really don’t.

*/selfish*

Still a lot of stuff to get figured out… like unemployment and whether I’m going to my mom’s next week for a small Easter pilgrimage…. eh, you know… the usual stuff.

OMG YAY I DON’T HAVE TO WORK FOR A WHILE!!!!

*heart bursting with joy*

Yeah, it rocks.

–Em